RHOC’s Kara Keough says she’s still suffering "the deepest pain" three months after newborn son’s tragic death.
Baby McCoy died just days after he was born in early April.
The grieving mom posted a picture with her husband holding their baby captioned: "You would have been three months old today. But instead, I’m three months into the deepest pain I’ve ever felt. I’ve survived three months when I didn’t think I’d live another three seconds.
"How has it been so long since I smelled you and felt your weight? Each day since you were born has felt like the longest day, a summer solstice of suffering. And yet, somehow, time is passing. Time is pushing on, moving my body begrudgingly into another day. Another day further away from the last time I held you in my arms.
"Who would you be today? Would you be blonde still, or bald? Would you smile bigger for mommy’s singing or with daddy’s beard tickling your belly? Would your sister be sneaking into your room and trying to lift you out of your crib even though we’ve told her not to three times already? Would she even be able to lift you by now?
Kara went on: "Would you track the dogs with your eyes, discovering your love for them already? Would you swipe your hands at all your new best friends, reaching out to pull hats and bows off their heads? Would we be FaceTiming with Caden, visiting Charlie, and taking pictures with Duke? Would your Uncle Korey be as obsessed with you as he is with your sister?
"Would missing grandpa be easier with you here? What would our days look like with you in them? We’re still making room for you in everything we do. We kiss you goodnight, we say “hi baby” when we see signs of you, we feel you everywhere. There’s a space where you should be, but each day it’s feeling less like a gaping hole and more like an invisible fullness. We love you, McCoy."
Baby McCoy died six days after he was born on April 6, following becoming stuck in the birth canal during a home birth.
Kara announced on Instagram: "On April 6th, our son McCoy Casey Bosworth was born at 3:10am."
"Weighing in at 11 pounds and 4 ounces and spanning 21 inches, McCoy surprised us all with his size and strength (and overall perfection).
"During the course of his birth, he experienced shoulder dystocia and a compressed umbilical cord."
She later posted: "Welcome home, baby boy," she simply captioned the picture of the urn nestled inside a large bouquet of flowers.
A month after losing her son, Kara also lost her father.
Matt Keough – the former Oakland Athletics pitcher and current special assistant – passed away on Saturday at the age of 64 of a pulmonary embolism.
Along with a series of pictures of the father-daughter duo, she wrote: "Daddy, please take care of my son.
"Teach him the circle changeup and how to find forever friends. You’re on grandpa duty in heaven now.
Kara, 33, and her husband share a 4-year-old daughter, Decker.
In October 2019, they announced that they were expecting their second child.
The couple tied the knot back in 2014.
Jeana has appeared on and off on RHOC from 2006-2017.
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