MIKE Thalassitis faced demons before his "self destruction", Montana Brown told mourners at his funeral.
The star was laid to rest at Southgate's Christ Church in North London on Friday.
He had taken his own life in March, aged 26.
His Love Island co-star Montana has now decided to share the transcript of her moving eulogy from the service.
In it, she urges people to "check in" on each other more often and stop being competitive with one another.
She also reveals she's grown close to Mike's family as they struggle to come to terms with the loss of the former semi-pro footballer.
Taking to Instagram, Montana posted a throwback picture of herself posing on a boat.
"Taking my hat off to Big M in the sky", she captioned it, before going into part of her eulogy.
It begins: "The last surprise was 2 weeks ago and I can tell you now Mike you surprised us all.
"I never knew that you were in so much pain, and I’m sorry that you felt like you couldn’t share your demons with me or your family as I've spent some time with them over the past two weeks and they’re the most down to earth, lovely people and I’m so happy you had such a strong support network.
"So the human body strives to survive, cells regenerate, they reboot, they mutate all to keep the body alive.[/caption]
"For Mike's mental illness to push him to the point where he wanted to self destruct and press that final game over button means that he must’ve been in such a dark place which we will never really understand.
"Mike, i truly believe you exhausted every avenue to avoid this outcome, as I know you knew you were loved, by so many people."
Further on, she tells how the 26-year-old was "misunderstood", presumably by the public due to his lothario TV image.
She adds: "I have to thank you for always being there for me, always sticking up for me and always telling me to stop being such a drama queen.
"You really were the best kind of person and I will always always remember you and learn from this awful situation."
She finished off the eulogy by asking asking other reality TV stars not to let "the rejection, the competitiveness, the need to constantly look like you’re OK on social media" to ruin their lives.
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