Holly Willoughby shared her fear of being "cancelled" months before the "queue-jumping" row surrounding her and This Morning co-host Philip Schofield.
The TV presenter, 41, admitted in her autobiography that she had begun censoring her own opinions for fear of being criticised for things she didn't say, after having her words twisted on social media.
She wrote: "I find myself almost regurgitating what other people have said because I don’t know what to say anymore."
The mum of three has talked about finding her voice again in her book Reflections, which was released last year, after feeling like a spectator in her own life.
Holly, who is married to TV producer Dan Baldwin, wrote: "I have a lovely life. I'm blessed with a husband I love and three healthy children, wonderful friends and family, and a fulfilling career.
"Life isn't problem free for anyone. I have down days, arguments and insecurities. I know that I am incredibly lucky. But despite all of this I wasn't present in my life. Something was missing."
Holly is said to be in "crisis talks" with ITV bosses amid fears she will leave This Morning in the wake of fierce backlash over accusations she and Phil, 60, skipped the queue at the Queen's lying-in-state at Westminster Hall last week.
It prompted many viewers to express their outrage online and a petition to have the two presenters axed has now been signed by more than 50,000 people.
A source told MailOnline: "Holly, in particular, has been left totally distraught by this. She's been in floods of tears at some of the things she's been called and of the behaviour she's been accused of."
The pair, who have presented the popular ITV daytime show together since 2009, strenuously denied the claims and insisted they were in a "press queue" after being given "official permission" to access the hall.
Holly said: "It was strictly for the purpose of reporting on the event for millions of people in the UK, who haven't been able to visit Westminster in person.
"The rules were that we would be quickly escorted around the edges to a platform at the back. In contrast, those paying respect walked along a carpeted area besides the coffin and were given time to pause."
It came after ITV released a statement insisting the presenters were there in a professional capacity with "press accreditation" and "did not file past The Queen's coffin", adding: "Any allegations of improper behaviour are categorically untrue."
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